It was the November 25th 2005, Sudarshan was in the college. There was cold outside. A slight rain was acting to make the temperature below the threshold value. It was a leisure period, as the teacher was absent due to some work.
The teacher has given a lab works to the students so that, they won’t be wasting their time in unnecessary activities. However the Bachelor level students found it difficult to concern on the teacher’s path, some of them were playing table tennis, some were busy in scoring three points in Basket Ball and some were sitting in class and singing their cool favorite song. Some sincere students were busy in their lab work. This time Sudarshan was trying to prove himself as a sincere student and was doing his lab work. He was searching the Internet for the work. By chance he was not getting the right tutorials and was scratching his head. In the mean time, he checked out his mail. There was a new mail in his inbox. It was an invitation by his school mate to join a web site. He hadn’t tried these sorts of sites till today. However he could not tolerate to neglect the request of his friend and so he filled the form. It was his bad luck that he didn’t have any of his photographs. He had formatted his USB drive just a few moments ago. So, he selected the nice photo of his best actor, though other data certainly corresponded to him. Finally, he was welcomed with a congratulations message, that he was registered to the site. He clicked the friend’s link of the friend (Sohan) who sent him the request to join the group. He added some of them to his friends group. Finally, he found the right tutorial for the lab work and prepared the lab report. It was the time for the next lecture, the bell said like that.
The next Lecture was from Mr. Peterson, who always tried to keep a strict discipline in the class. Students were not allowed to come late than two minutes. If they come late then their attendance was not taken and certainly this will also be considered while calculating the internal grades. All of the students came in right time. The teacher took the class and left as usual in the right time. The students were eager to leave home after this last lecture for today.
It was the tomorrow morning; Mr. Peterson gave the students lab work and left for his work. This day most of the students were busy preparing their lab report. Some of the guys started playing outdoor games and asked their friends to do the work for them too. Sudarshan took no time in completing the lab work as it was very easy. Then he browsed the site that he registered yesterday. There he found a new message for him. There were two messages, one from his classmate inviting him to join the get together tomorrow evening. The second one was from completely unknown lady. Though he had added her to his friends list just yesterday, he really did not know about her except the data mentioned in the site. She had given her email address and asked him to mail. She had also admired his profile and asked if he would like to be her good friend. He was feeling very difficult. It was the youth mind and he revisited the lady’s profile. He was very excited to get the email address of such a beautiful girl. He did not considered what other information was about.
It did not take so much time to send mail to the girl. He added some other friends to his group and increased the friends in his group. The time passed in its rate.
“Because I Love You….” , the hotel’s stereo was saying. Many boys were already present in the joined table. Sohan was laughing with other guys. Sudarshan was welcomed by Sohan and introduced to some new friends. It was a great meet. Sudarshan enjoyed a lot. In the mean time he asked about the lady, whether Sohan added her to his group by knowing or not. Sohan just ignored and said that he also added her from another friend’s group and really did not know her. Sudarshan told the incident happened today. Sohan laughed and yelled,” Girls are crazy to see your profile and might have given you their email id. That’s not the great thing at all. But I don’t have any email id of such girls. Bad Luck! Only boys”.
Sudarshan thought a lot why she was giving her email id to him and not to Sohan. He was proud to be special to girls for some time. He thought whether some special friendship can be established between them. He did not expected much more than that from a girl till now. In the mean time the stereo was playing cool sentimental song, “Timro mero sambandhako artha khojna kar laagyo..”, one of the best song of Sudarshan. He compared his situation with the feeling of the music for some time.
“Come on guys its already time to close the hotel for today, best time next day….”, Sohan said. In a short time, the group was dismissed. Sudarshan left to home alone. .Bad luck, no bus for him today. It was nearly fifteen minutes walk to his house. In the mean time he was thinking of the party and the girl. “Why she gave me the email id and what might be her expectance? Being a lady? Ha, let’s leave it. There can be various good relations between male and female other than what young guys think. Yes, she can be a good friend for me like Sohan is…..”.
“Is this your time to return home?”, Father shouted him. Mother said calmly, “you should return home early, son. Its not good to stay outside longer in evening, right?” He looked at his father’s face. It seemed that all of his blood is in his face. He murmured,” See his eyes, oh my god an ordinary person would have fainted, how could I tolerate. Only, because he is my father.” What makes the man so different from the women? How much my mother and father differ in his habits, even more than the land and the sky. Why the god gave him so hard heart?
My anger instantly increased. Sudarshan was listening to music and doing the home works. His father called him for dinner. Again he murmured, “What makes him change his habit so instantly? Just now how he was treating me, but now he is to express his love voice”. He called him to join the dinner once again.” His temper might increase in no time, so its not good to make him .” The father, mother and son took a lovely meal. The father was adding food to his son’s plate. Sudarshan was amazed. Finally, he concluded that he was not his enemy at all. They are his god and love, shout and scold whatever is just for his good. “Parents are always good to their child. It is impossible to return the love that parents give to their child”
Tomorrow morning the inbox was filled with the reply the girls send. Her actual name was Sudha and she mentioned that she was happy to have a friend like him. Sudarshan was eager to send the reply. After sending, he felt whether he has missed the thing that he wanted to include in the mail. The bell ranged to indicate that the break was over. Mr. Sharma was completing his course today and thanked the students for their co-operation during the semester. He wished a good luck for their exam. There was no more than fifteen days for the exam. By tomorrow almost the entire subject teacher will be thanking the students.
In this way the semester ended and the students are to prepare for their University exam. Sudarshan was busy preparing at home. Some moment he spent with his friends in discussion for the exam. The exam started on 12th December and lasted for seventeen days. Sudarshan did his best. In the gap days he would be searching in the internet and discussing with friends for the doubts. There were already ten mails from Sudha and Sudarshan up to now. Now they are frank to express their feelings and at least a mail per day was the rate.
The exam was completed and the college will be starting only by 5th January. What to do in the mean time? Just roaming here and there in day time, visiting the internet at night, chatting with friends was the only routine of Sudarshan. He did not miss a single opportunity to help his parents in their work. It was a New Year time approaching the world. People were celebrating in their own way. Though it was not the actual festival of Nepalese, they are habituated to do so. Sudha sent a nice e card, Sudarshan too did so.
Look at the age of the two creature. Both in their early twenties and what might be in their heart and mind? Now they have started to chat in the mobile. At least a call from each other is a normal rate.
It was the time to go for studies once again. The new books and new teachers are actually inspiring the students to have some interest in their studies. The class was in silent mode. The mobile bell rang silently in his pocket. Nobody recognized it. He silenty looked at the number, it was Sudha’ s call. Mr. Paudel was teaching and everybody was looking to the white board in his beautiful handwriting. There was no option to cancel the call, though there was a great regret. No more than a minute had expired and the call came again. It was break and why not to talk. He responded and slowly went to the alone. A ten minute gossip was not sufficient but the friends were shouting to join for the lunch.
It was February 10th and still cold. He was inside the blanket and chatting with Sudha. “Very memorable chat every time”, he thought so. Suddenly the light went off and the city was in a dark. All people had already dreamt and the two creatures were sharing their feelings. He was also obliged to close the conversation as the UPS produced some warnings. Tomorrow morning, again there was a new mail and no way other than to response the mail for him. Till now no body was able to have a single sign about the affair. Today the February 13th night, some people in the city were enjoying the upcoming Valentines Day. Look at the two strange creatures. Don’t they have other work? Only chatting? Very strange! ha?
Today it was a strange conversation that took place in their life.
Sudarshan-“How are you celebrating tomorrow’s Valentines Day? Don’t u have any Valentine? “
Sudha-“How to say? He is in my dream.”
Sudarshan-“Come on bring him to your reality and take the advantage of this great day. Tell him the words you want. Don’t wonder. It’s not to wait a long. You have to finalize. Utilize your time fully.”
Sudha-“Me 2, thinking so.”
Disturbance again! Suddenly the light went off and his UPS was warning that he has few minutes to proper shut down the machine.
Sudarshan-” Me 2 go. Load shedding! Good night”
Sudha-“I should tell it finally no?”
Sudarshan-“Yes do it ok? now me 2 leave.”
Sudha-“It’s to you. Will you be my Valentine? I love u Sudarshan and want to spend my life with you”
Amazed! What to say. Trembling fingers are missing the typing rate…….
Sudha-“Yup man I really love you though I haven’t seen you, I respect ur feelings man. I will be compromising anything for you”
Last, long signal from the UPS. Finally all black.
Unable to sleep the whole night. Thinking about the three words presented to him.
“How she decided such a great thing? We haven’t any dates at all and even…”
Hey Sudarshan come on its time for the tea. Don’t you have college today? Its already six and sleeping till now? The college bus wont be waiting for you today and I wont be giving you any bus charges. You lazy bone……
“Mom….I…I ..I will be ready in few minutes…”
All friends were waiting for him. There was no much to study today. The sports week has started and almost everyone participating in it. Sudarshan will be having his football match tomorrow. “Guys I will be for the practice in few minutes, you guys go on…” shouting these words he was to open the inbox. There was a long mail from Sudha with a love e card. Even after three days he could not reply at all and not have a single call and chat. The cell is switched off.
Finally, he turned the cell on and there was an immediate call and it was she. Again, the same three words. Call was ended from the receiver. Again same number and same words, but some questions for this time.
“If my words hurt you I am sorry. But I am in deep love with you.”
“How could you say like that, we haven’t seen each another and our parents haven’t talked to each other? I have still a lot to study and you only doing your PCL course.”
“These all don’t matter, if we are true and there is no deceived. We can continue our study and convince our parents. I didn’t ask you to marry me just now. Its only the propose, we can direct it to long journey or…Its totally up to we two..”
“I love my parents and can’t go against them. They love me very much. They are my god, heaven and everything for me. I can’t compromise them for you. You listen; I can’t sacrifice my parents at any cost. Please excuse me, we are a good friend and can be so for ever. You are a girl, please think of your parents what might they be thinking?”
“I don’t have my parents. They are dead when I was ten in a plane crash………..sh sh sh..” A painful scream from the other end was heard. The call terminated suddenly.
A long try from this side was unsuccessful as the cell was switched off. No training for the match and the mail server was ready to send the consolation words for Sudha. For consolation only there was an inclusion of the words”. I also love you, but as a friend….”
“Oh! I will call her better” searches the pocket for the cell but unable. He has forgotten to bring the cell today. He was wondering the whole day,” what she might be feeling? Better I did not have answered instantly in that manner? But……..” He could not concentrate on the training and was hurried to leave for home.
“There was a call for you on the cell. I was surprised that you have forgotten to take it today. Finally there was a message for you, a girl..Sudha has a message on your cell…” Mother explained.
The message was already entered in the inbox, so mother had read it and nothing private. He worried a lot and was afraid what his father will be thinking of. Also his tempered face and large eyes. He could not imagine. “Its better to tell everything truly before it gets out of way.”, thinking this he straightly went to his mother and collected great courage and finally told all the story. “I even rejected the proposal but she is not to leave me and wanted to meet me tomorrow. You tell me what I shall do. It’s all adventitious.” Regretting, he was with his face down. In the mean time it was the entry of the great person- father! Both were silent. Father looked them seriously and with his tempered face and large eyes again looked to both of them.
“I heard everything of your conversation. I am sorry about this. It’s not your fault nor is the girl doing any fault. This is the age that made you so. So you should be very careful and convince the girl. Look, you should be very formal and don’t hurt the girl. As she had called you, go and tell her that this is not the time to do so and for now you are good friends and let the future decide the thing. Don’t hurt her at all else you will be losing a good friend”.
He was surprised after listening this. There was no sleep for the whole night. He could not memorize what sorts of incident happened in the match and nothing at all. The only thing he was remembering is that he has a difficult date at 5 today. He was on the road side seeking the girl face of his concern. As she had already mentioned she will be in yellow kurta salwar( a Pakistani dress), he didn’t find any difficulty in identifying her. She was waiting on the other corner and polling the watch in her thin and whitish wrist. He had already mailed her that the photo he posted was not of his own, but the girl did not concerned this at all and was all the way at her.
He was amazed that the girl who had proposed him was such a beautiful creature of the world. He kept looking her for some moment in the mean time there were phone calls, but still unaware about it. Later a truck blew strong horn and shouted at him as he was in the middle of the road. He stroked his head slightly and call returned to her to confirm that the girl was Sudha. It was not confusion and she responded, he mentioned that he is on the opposite corner in the white shirt and black pant posing towards her with a cell in a hand. It took no time to truncate the call and she was keenly looking to him from the opposite corner. It was the feelings that make them blind that both were unaware that they were crossing the road. There was no more than some meters distance between them. Suddenly a truck was there to hit Sudha. Sudarshan was frightened. Sudha was lying on the road with blood covered her face and trembling her hand towards Sudarshan. She could hardly say, “Sudarshan the god was so rude that we could not meet in this life. No matter, the only thing that I want to hear from you is the three words. Please let me leave the world happily. Wont you? I swear we will meet in next life and for whole life.” Tears exploded the beautiful face and finally mixed to the blood. The red tears were flooding the heart of Sudarshan.
He could hardly say and do anything. The truck finally came with back gear and was to stroke Sudha again. But the public was to protect her. Soon there was the siren of the ambulance and Sudha was to be admitted in the emergency operation theater. Sudha was asking for the same reply. Sudarshan could not tolerate at all. He cut his hand with the broken glass of the window and put the latch of blood on the forehead of Sudha. Sudha slightly laughed and again her tears made the way to become red. The doctors started the operation. Sudarshan was waiting outside in the hope that Sudha would be alright. But the chance was against them, doctors asked for an excuse like in the serials. Sudarshan went to see the corps of Sudha and was continually looking. Finally he felt down on Sudha’s dead body. The doctors admitted him on the next theater. Sudarshan’s parents also visited the hospital. Their eyes were being flooded with tears.
The doctor came from the operation theater with no feelings in their face. He said seriously that Sudarshan is unconscious till now and the treatment is going on. Minutes, hours and days passed but no progress. The doctors were hesitating to explain that Sudarshan has lost his memory and could hardly remember any things from his past life. The parents were screaming in pain.
See the god, how can he change the life of a person from the beautiful garden to the arid desert.
Now its one year passed since Sudarshan has been in amnesia. Sudarshan has a new mimic life. He could not remember his parents, his friends and none of all. The doctor referred his parents to take him to another country for further treatment, and hoped that he might be able to live a new happy life. Today these three creatures are leaving for the treatment. Sudarshan’s friends, neighbors, teachers all wished him a better treatment, though he did not recognize them.
Don’t you think we should wish him a better treatment?